Random musing:

My knickers are stretched to my shape; comfortable and accommodating to my body image. Yes they are scungy, tatty and torn, faded and daggy, Fraid with holes. But they ease my mind.
But now the dreaded day has finally arrived where I have to buy new undies! Sure it should be an event to be excited about but it is one I despise just for the simple fact that i don’t want muffin top! I will sit in discomfort, feeling my fat rolls hang over tight elastic. Ill have the need to pull them higher then necessary to “tuck it all in” and think how they will bee seen through tighter clothing.

Nawwww I love my hobo undies :(


P.S. - R.I.P. Michael Jackson. Your music made me, changed me and is forever apart of me.

facts and figures 1#

Hmm its been awhile. Sorry for the neglect of the blogging but I have quickly browsed everyones blogs to see how everyone is going. They are all so inspirational.

Well its been flat tack here at work. I was doin 2 jobs for 2 weeks while our receptionist was in Bali, and now have spent all this week trying to catch up on my work. And ihave to say I love being that busy. The day goes so much faster, I move around a lot more plus I have to leave the office a lot so I walk down town which is 10 minutes there and back each time so burning up abit more is fine by me haha.

Well I joined up at the gym, and all though I spend the whole days deciding whether to go or not, I feel so good after! I’m not a fan of using the equipment. I prefer to use a tredmill privately so I can turn up my ipod and run with noone to judge and mouth the words to my metal songs, and I must say the thought of me attempting to jog on a treadmill mouthing the lyrics which entail a lot of screaming is making me giggle. Hence the reason I like to privately use the equipment. Im more of a group fitness gal and that’s all I do!
So far this week I have done:

Monday: Walking (1hr) and Body Attack (1hr)
Tuesday: Walk/Jog (30 mins) and Body Step (1hr)
Wednesday (today): Cross trainer (30 mins) and planning to do Body Pump (1hr)

Thursday I plan to have a day off as it is shopping night and Friday I am going to try Body Combat!

I just gotta find the motivation to get to the gym tonight. I cant be assed but I really need to go as Macy is cooking pasta bake tonight and I know for a fat that I will eat more then I intend to. I always try to weigh what I eat but its getting abit obvious with the scales out all the time. Meh, macy is always talking about her diet so hope ony thinks its her.

Ooo yeah I was searching the web today at work (bit of free time on my hands) and I was wondering how many calories equal a pound and I found this piece of information:

“A pound of body fat equates to approximately 3500 calories. So if you have a calorie deficit of 500 calories (meaning that you burn 500 calories more than you eat each day) you would lose approximately one pound per week:
500 x 7 = 3,500
It's easy to see that a calorie deficit of 1000 calories would mean that you'd lose approximately two pounds per week. And that's a good number to remember, because two pounds a week is commonly accepted as the maximum rate of weight loss that is healthy….”

That is from the site: www.caloriesperhour.com

And looking through a few of the sub titles I ended up on a link that calculates how long it will take to burn off the amount of pounds you are aiming for if you have a calorie deficit and this is the results from my aim:

Current weight: 146lb
Goal weight 1#: 127lb

Calorie deficit:
250 cals - 8 months & 26days

300 cals - 7 months & 12 days
350 cals - 6 months 10 days

400 cals - 5 months & 16 days

500 cals - 4 months & 13 days

My goal is to be 127 by October (my 21st) so I need to burn 500 cals more then I eat each day to reach that goal!
Now I feel motivated for the gym!

Just doin a quick working out……

From what I have eaten today and plan to eat tonight and what exercise I have done and will do I will have a deficit of 300!

Pump it is!

Well it is the end of the day. I will try keep a more regular post now that it has calmed down here. I hope my little facts are interesting and help you achieve your goals.

Oo and on a plus side I have been stuck at 66kg (146lb) for 3 weeks or so, which sucks because I haven’t lost any more but then I haven’t gained, just maintained! But I weighed myself today and am back in the 65kgs :D good motivation to see 64kg!

Off to pump it
Ciao ciao
Savii xx

Gyming it up

First off, hello and thank you to those following me. I hope I can provide some form of service, whether it is inspiration, entertainment or even time wasting :P

Second: I am off to join the gym after work. As much as I love walking it just doesn’t burn enough!
An hour walking at 6kph burns 300 cals but 1 hour doing body step burns double that, and looking at the gym timetable you can do 2-3 classes in a row! That’s 1200 to 1800 cals possibly burnt off! So once I get into a routine and build up my fitness I hope to do all 3 in a row some days! Look out body!

Just got a txt from my friend danny who is down for the weekend for my mates (and her ex) 21st party and she wants to catch up for dinner at Hungry Jacks :( :(
I have been feverishly searching calorie king to king out just how much a whopper junior minus beef and cheese but they don’t have that option! I want subway but with danny its either her way or the highway *sigh* ill see if they still do ceaser salads and I just wont put the dressing on and pick out the croutons. Easy done! Otherwise the usual Whopper junior minus beef, cheese, tomato and pickle with light mayo and heavy lettuce and a medium diet coke. I say usual which it pretty much as been for 5 years because after working there for 3 years I KNOW what they do to that beef *shudders*

Hope I can keep it up as today has been a goodin’.
80 mins walking
Muesli & milk and fish and salad and an apple today making it a total 200 cals so far. Just got dinner to go :S

Off to sign up!
Ciao Ciao

Savii

Must..resist

After a weekend I am trying to erase from my mind I have maintained weight which I have mixed feelings about. On one side I haven’t gained, on the other its still fatty mcfatfat!

Have tried pickin up my act today after last nites shameful binge on Cadbury rocky road chocolate (which is now all gone thankfully) yet there now remains my 70% cocoa block which again is good and bad. On one side its pretty rich so cannot eat my usual half a block, only 2 squares plus it has good antioxidants! On the other side its still chocolate that I do not need. I did so well for 2 weeks where not a piece touched my lips, not mouth has had a taste and craves like there is no tomorrow! I will be strong!

So yeah, back to getting back on track with today. I have been thoroughly researching my calorie counter book and assessing my daily intake and a usually stick around the 800 cal mark. Over the weekend I blitz the 1,000 cal max limit which I am very ahamed about. It was such a lack of self control, I swear my hand and mouth shared a mental thought and decided to mutiny over my lack of sugar and crap! But I am back in control with a limit of 600cals per day now!
Today I have consumed:
Muesli (10g) & Hilo milk (15mls) – 39 + 7 = 46 cal

Medium Apple (Half at 11.30am & other half at 4pm) = 72 cal

Lettuce (10g), Carrot (30g), Baby spinach (10g), avocado (5g),
grated cheese (3g) wrapped in Roti bread – 2 + 12 + 2 + 8 + 12 + 70 – 106cal

Mini Anzac muffin (10g) – 49cal

And tonights dinner, cos macy is away I can pick something low cal, we are having fish and veges which I hope is no more then 300 cals all up.

On top of thati hae also walked about 1.5 hours today and plan to do some yoga and weights and sit ups!

I want to reach at least 143lb by sat!!

Just a quick update. I promise to write one good and proper when I have some time between bosses walking past my comp all day hehe

Stay strong!

Saviii
xx

Quick update

Well in the time frame of about 18 hours I’ve had to watch my ex drool over his current love interest as she walked the stage in teeny tiny bikinis last nite with a hot bod while I felt like a fat whale in the corner, and go to a doctors appointment for a breast check up which meant taking my top off and sitting there with my fat rolls hanging out everywhere. I swear the whole time he was checking them I didn’t not care that an old guy was fondling my boobs, I cared more about how disgusting I looked sitting there with giant muffin top and pot belly. Lucky I hadn’t had lunch yet that would have been worse.

I haven’t had a chance to weigh myself in the last 2 days and its killing me. I dunno if its beta to do it once a week or everyday but I prefer everyday that way I can keep a daily track. I always weigh myself on same time: after I have just walked home and eaten my lunch. Am contemplating jumping on the wii tonight but I have no idea how to turn it on with my housemates gadget control. Press this then this then that then activities then press this till this comes up *sigh* I should just purchase some scales but alas since I am going to New Zealand in august I must save.

Anyway I have decided that once I meet 132lb I am going to get a tattoo on my hip. Now I love tattoos. I watch LA Ink, Miami Ink and London Ink whenever I can and always talk about my next planned one. But I will only get a tat that has personal meaning and get it done on a place that won’t stretch as I see that as pointless. One of these pointless places was on my hip but a way I see it now is to get to a weight I will never go higher then, and get the tat as motivation to not stretch it with whale blubber! Nothing big, just a reminder to stay in control. I’m excited and motivated just thinking about it, a new tat on my slimmer hips.

I’m going to use this motivation to its advantage and jump on the treadmill.

And just a little note to me these ramblings have no flow. I love a good entry that has some time dedicated to writing it but I am at work and have to keep hiding my entry as I write, do some calls and jobs in between and I loose my train of thought. Ill try an entry at home when I am alone and to myself J

Savii xx

Highs and lows

Well from a week of such high spirits as I watch the number on the scales go down, my f**k of an ex decided to tell me that he is goin on a date with a chick in the finals for a mans magazine! Heres me tryin to be nice (god knows why since he has done nothing for me sept make my life a misery) and being all supportive when he is saying he is all nervous and the conversation goes something like this:

Ex: “Fukn Nervous enuf!”

Me:” u’ve been out with enuf girls 2 no wat 2 do haha”

Ex: “ya but nun dis hot, no ofence ha”

So there is me, was crying the shower for about 10 mins last nite hating the body I was in, hating that I am no good in beauty standards, hating the fact that I am not a hot model in finals to get into magazines with my smoking hot body in an itsy bitsy bikini!! Hating that I still care about what he says. Hating me! And these feelings have carried onto 2day *sigh*

The only plus side is that I am back to my old highest weight! Hardly worth celebrating though cos I never should have gotten any higher in the first place!
So to get on the right track I have been making mini challenges with myself.
This weekend I am off to the casino and clubbing in Perth so I want to be hopefully 147lb
The following weekend I hope to be a stable 145lb
By June 22nd (ex’s bday) I hope to be a solid 141 lb as that is what I was his birthday last year… smaller would be fantastic but tryin to be realistic! So I have a month to loose about 7lb. I need to. I have to!

I’ve been eating relatively well. My only downfall is dinner time where I just feel I must eat EVERYTHING.
Have been eating:
Breakfast: 20g of muesli – 78cal
General salad and vegetable patties I made – 150 cals (this varies most days as will have an egg or soup extra so lunch ranges from 150 – 300)
Snack: Apple – 55cal
Dinner: Roughly 600cals

Grrrr I need to cut back so much at dinner! Or at least go for a walk after to start the burning process so not everything is stored when I sleep! Its just so hard when there is ice cream in the fridge. So am trying to revert back to Ice cream on Sunday’s only. This was the family tradition for years. Ice cream was the Sunday treat and looked forward to it so much! Now I’m out of home I cant stop eating it cos it is there at my leisure. This is where I need to put my self control in motion. I have been doing so good with chocolate so now to apply with ice cream! Or at least substitute with yoghurt. Geez I used to eat yoghurt by the gallon but since getting so sick last year dairy just doesn’t sit well anymore! Sucks! The only good thing to come out of being very ill was the weight loss! I loved being that small, being able to fit into my old clothes and t-shirts and especially my mini mini mini skirt which hadn’t fit me since year 8! Last Christmas is fit so snugly now I can just get it to my hips and I don’t even bother trying to button them up! The day that skirt fits is the day I will feel accomplished!

Well beta do some work I suppose.

Savii xx


P.S. just seen a pic of the ex’s new interst and sure she got a body (bad) but I think im much beta looking then her (good). Feelin abit beta now.

p.p.s. good feeling now gone :(

"what you eat in private, shows in public"

We I think a small introduction is in order. Just an average 20 year old living in Western Australia. Huge fan of dancing. The best for of release! Love a good laugh, hanging with my mates. Addicted to travelling, currently planning a get away to New Zealand in August this year, contiki touring it up with my housemate Tony* which I am very much looking forward to. I work in Real Estate, the legal side of it and I have to say it is not the most exciting job there is but it pays the bills. I recently moved out with my friends Tony and Macy* which has given me a new outlook to life. The freedom, the independence, the responsibility. I love it!

However, there is one thing I hate... my body!
Its fat, its lumpy, its flabby and in desperate need of some hip bones and toning! Some tanning and perfection! Alot of self disipline and self control!
As of Monday i started this control! My goal is to get to 127lb by my 21st birthday! I have to. I need to.

*sigh* I find it hard to give up eating the things i love. Chocolate, icecream, Biscuits, muffins..... those are my biggest loves and my greatest downfalls!
However I am proud to say that after Easter i have had my chocolate fix, i make home made muffins now, biccies just dont do me anymore and icecream? well we buy way to much of it! but i haVe found an alternative. Last night i decided to buy some frozen strawberries(will get fresh when they are abit cheaper), low fat yoghurt, ice and hilo milk and made mini frappes which turned out pretty decent. I also purchased some weight waters jelly @ 9cals per 100g and i only have about 50g at a time so 4.5cals woop woop.

I am a very big calorie counter now. This started when my friend brought me a calorie counting book last year. It pretty much became mym bible. I was checking EVERYTHING that i was about to eat but i was never very serious about it at the time. Now times are changing. Since i stated this goal seriously i have discovered that my bible book is also online which makes it much more convinient: www.calorieking.com.au i do recommend a look. It helps me keep track troughout that day plus i can plan ahead and see just what i should eat and how much exersice will burn it off again :D


So my goal weights i want to achieve are:
End May/June - 147lb
July - 143lb
August - 138lb
Sept - 134lb
OCT - 127lb

I can do it! I will do it

Eaten so far:
Muesli - Apricot & Almond (20g) - 78cal
Salad - Lettuce baby spinach, carrot, capsicum, celery, 40g tuna, 10g cheese, one egg - 200cal

Exersice:
1.5 Hrs walking:
60 mins @6kph - 302cals burnt
30 mins @ 5kph - 124cals burnt

Savii xx