Back on track...

Ever since I have come back from my holiday I have lost all control. I cant say no anymore, I cant stop after just one small tasting, I cant walk past without resisting temptation.

But not anymore!

Starting today I have 2 weeks until my birthday and I have maintained the same weight for about 3 months now! Time to break it!
No chocolate or chips have been brought during the weekly shopping so if I need to pig out I have a nice supply of fruit n vege!
Am limiting to 600-650 a day with a min of 600 burnt off everyday which can easily do at the gym on an hour! So taking it easy then slowly going to build up the exercise! Gotta look fantastic for my bday!

Damn i wish i had her body!

Man I cant wait for summer!

I find it so easy to not eat in the summer. Waking up in the morning before the beach and u have a flat stomach which you don’t want to ruin before walking down the sand in a bikini so you just don’t eat. The sunbathing and swimming all day, doing exercise while being social, then hve a cold refreshing coke zero and an apple and a bottle of water for hydration, then back in the water to burn off the apple and go home tanned, toned and empty….and happy!

That is my summer weekend routine … and I cannot wait for this rain to go so it can begin!!

Im goin to start blogging more to stay on track. When I have to write what i am doing, I want to feel confident i am being strong and not guilty I am failing.

So until then I have a nice bowl of salad, watermelon, an apple and an egg white omelet with baby spinach leaves to get me through till the gym tonight!

ciao cioa

savii

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Epic fail!

Ladies at work: “where have all the smarties gone?.....”

Me: raises hand *shame*

Spring is in the air

Finally it is spring! The countdown to beach weather is now on :D can finally get my long awaited tan! I feel naked without a golden brown tinge to my skin. Instead i go the lovely colour of yellow during winter (ick). Plus it means longer nights so can go jogging on the beach, or even go to the gym and go for a walk later for a cool done because it will still be light and warm enough.

Have started a new sort of routine. I had contemplated attempting 2,4,6,8 upon the first day i found I lacked the control to restrict to 200 cals. So I have made afew amendments to suit my eating styles for now:

Monday - 600

Tueseday - 400

Wednesday - 600

Thursday - Fast

Friday - 400

Sat & Sun - 600 (including alcohol intake)

Also i must burn a minimum 900 cals a day

Today is a 400 cal day which will be tough tonight when I am at my weakest but have pre-planned my dinner and will be atthe gym for 2 hours plus i want to get back into my painting which is quite distracting so hopefully I can keep a level head ans eat what i have assigned myself.

If hungry, i will allow myself 5 almonds. Now i must say, almonds are one of the ultimate hunger stoppers. If im hungry i grab 10 almonds (23 Cals) and i feel full for a couple of hours! They are my new snack love!

I am goin to follow this routine till my birthday in one months time where i am planning a mini make over for myself. I want to give to wow factor when all family and friends see me thin and toned, blonde and with hair extensions :D Plus it would be nice to feel good about myself for one day, away from my greasy knotty hair, old baggy jumpers and pants to hide my fats. By then i hope to be 140lb (which i should have been months ago *sigh*)

Then i have 3 months till new years to be 125 - Back to where iwas 2 yrs ago!

Im excited to begin :D

Well i had better do some work

ciao ciao

Savii

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back... and bigger then ever

well hats how i feel anyways.... But i allowed it! After all its hard to restrict with $5 spirits and buffet breakfast and dinners every night in a giant contiki tour for 15 days with 53 people and sharing a room with friends! Problem is now i cant stop eating!

Today was the start of restriction once again but the chocolate block under my bed was to tempting. So once that is gone its back to it. I have a new goal to push myself towards and thats my 21st bday!

10 pounds in 6 weeks. Im hoping the 3kgs i gained from my holiday will melt of quick then another 3 after that. Well there is only one way to find out.

Tho on a different note, despite the amount of crap i have been eating, it was good to just get go of control for awhile, let loose and enjoy myself. To taste food i had banned from my mouth for the first time in ages was like pure heaven. I knew it was bad but i was on holiday... from the world... and from myself! Sure im paying for it now but i enjoyed it at the time. My 2 week holiday binge!

So now that i have had my fill and over stuffed my face with goodies, i really feel no desire to have any more!

Back to reality now :) to quiet comforting control

Savii

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Food diary

Intake:

Breakfast - 10g muesli (40 cals) & 15mls hilo milk (7 cals) - 47cals

Lunch - handful of Lettuce (3cals ) handful of baby spinach (2cals ) 25g of carrot (21 cals) 1 stick of capsicum (2 cals) 1 stcik of celery (4 cals) 100 mls chicken vege soup (46 cals) = 77 cals

Dinner - 200g spag bog - 300 cals

Snack - 25g Carrot (21 cals), 4 clelery sticks (13 cals ), half a scone (100 cals)

TOTAL CONSUMED(rounding to nearest hundred) : 600 Cals

Exercise:

60 mins power walking (half hour to work, half hour home to lunch) - 300 cals
20 mins walking to town and back - 85 cals
60 mins body attack - 751 Cals
30 Mins body cuircuit - 300 cals

TOTAL BURNED: 1436 Cals


i just brought myself 2 blocks of chocolate.... the test is to see how long they can last!!!!

Ciao
Savii
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as i write this i am eating a scone >.<

2 weeks to go till I fly out and im STILL at the same weight I have been for the last month! And I no the reason behind it! My in ability to give up lollies and my love of pumpin the weights at the gym! Ill explain

Lately I have succeeded in not going over 800 cals a day which him pretty impressed with, considering when I look back on old food diaries where my daily intake was around 1800+ (never again). I even got down to 500 cals a day but after a very drunk yet eventful night I met a guy, which resulted in dinner and lunch dates plus a group dinner outing with friends. Sure I could have chosen not to eat before these meals but I prefer not to feel light headed and uneasy at the gym hence eating substantial mini meals to keep me going. So sticking to 800 or less a day but burning1200+ a day is the aim. Which brings me to the gym!

After years of avoiding the gym, I look back now and think myself a fool! It is the best place especially for me who lacks motivation! Body Step, Body Pump, Body Attack and Body Combat as the greatest afternoon calorie burners! Even better when there are two in a row! So I have been going to the gym now for just over a month and can definitely see a change. I have toned up considerably, I have more muscle definition, more energy and motivation plus its great to get in my daily work out when its raining every day! I have also had several comments on my weight loss. But heres the kicker, THERE IS NO WEIGHT LOSS! Maybe fat loss and muscle gain but I NEED the scales to go down. For peace of mind, to see all my efforts are not in vain and that I really am working towards something! I know if I give up weights it may help but I love the class, I love the burning sensation in a lunge and the last surge of energy in the last push of a rep! besides the more muscle to build, the more you burn when you are resting. Grr so many different reasons to stop and continue. Plus the guilt trip that sits on me when I miss a class is horrendous. In that hour I could be burning calories I will be consuming instead!

Decision made. I am sticking with the weights and will control my junk eating habits!

Am off down south this weekend to watch a band and stay for 2 nights. So excited :D

Ciao
Savvii
xx

chunky shame!!!

The legs story: i have always had big legs. I was a swimmer and a good one at that, so i had the bulk muscle and tone which i had no problem with, infact i was proud of them.

<<<-- Until this photo in April this year at my highest weight:

i am embarrased and ashamed!

I vowed to change what i had created of my chunky cheddar, orange peel fatty mcfatfat legs! I have walked every day and joined the gym doing Body Attack, body pump,Body Step and body Combat.

4kg later and i seen improvement. Not perfection but improvement! i can cross my legs without the fat having to overflow and crease up. i can see my lost muscles returning to their former glory. i dont want bulk, i want definition!


I no for a fact that i will never had stick thin legs and i accept that, i will do whatever it takes to have lean and tones pins that will be the envy of many! i get nice comments now but i want them even better.

i have had a shocking weekend of constant intake of food but i plan of fixing that.

Hope everyone is well :)

savii
xx