2010 Resolutions/Goals

I wanna look this hot when i go to work out!!!

Welcome year 2010!

I will make this the year! The year I have the control and self motivation to reach my goal! I want it bad... real bad..!

Well if yo havent noticed already, I have added my weight goals on the right side there and i think it is a pretty safe way to go about it. Yes its a slow process but slow and steady is how I plan to do it. Wanting perfection right here right now always backfires in my face so have made up a challenge, complete with 12 short term goals eachg month to reach my ultimate and most desired weight!

Man i'd be happy with just reaching 120lb, so even hitting that goal i will be content and happy!


As far as other goals and resolutions go:

2010 Resolutions/Goals

• I am hoping to travel around europe mid this year which i am very much looking forward too, have booked one part but am still working on my passport *sigh*


• Get in contact with friends who i have drifted from


• Become a more active runner and swimmer


• Run the 12km City to Surf in August (Local community walking/running event)


• Start ballroom dancing


• Start my painting again


• Start new sewing projects
  
• Consider a possible job change after holiday
  
• Appreciate each day

Yeah they arent very interesting but im excited for this new year :D

So to end this post I am going to sent my goals for this week:

Goals of the week:
DO NOT buy any Lollies && Chocolate!
Have a deficit of minimum 200 per day
Appreciate!

I hope everyone had a fantastic new years and i wish you luck in all your goals for 2010

Savii
xxx

pre 2010 goals - starting resolutions early

I failed my Xmas challenge, I feel the biggest i have ever been, let myself go to the festive season and i am now paying for it this summer. On top of guzzling food by the handfuls, i cant even exersice to the levels i crave due to shin splints and neck and back problems. I want them to heal, yet i cannot stop myself from going to the gym. I must do body step and body attack to make amends to my face stuffing yet i leave feeling the pain just that little bit more each time.

I will then come home to a fridge full of chocolates i have received at gifts and eat without a thought.

The reality hit my upon standing on the scales for the first time in 2 months to see a figure i had hoped belonged in the past! How i loathed the very body i was in, how i curseld my lack of control. It was my fault i have been so care free, so oblivious to my abuse on myself....

That was the past. I now stand in the present, and look forward to the future with new hope for the year 2010.

Christmas has been and gone, the new year is approaching.. and i am overflowing with new courage and a game plan. I have the big picture in mind but i need to break it down to a realistic level each week. Here is this weeks goals.

Mini goals till 2010:


For the next 3 days i am -

• sticking with 500 cals a day


• i will burn 900 cals min for 2 of those days
  (Tuesday - Walking & BodyStep + Wednesday - Walking and BodyAttack)


• On day 3 i will stick to 500 cals foodwise and do alot of dancing to burn off the excess amount of alcohol i plan on drinking new years eve!

As for the rest of the week, one day will be recover and travel as group of us is planning to drive south to climb Bluff knoll next weekend, a 6km return, 3 hour hike up a fantstic mountain which will hopefull burn a fair bit of booze new years and tone the legs abit. I am very excited about this, have done it before but i was in recovery from glandular fever, plus had a head cold and had to stop every 50m, plus it was raining and hailing so hopefully this time i am much fitter, healthier and the sun is shining bright witha clean view overlooking the stirling ranges once we reach the top!!!

I am also going to try to update more often. I dont use the net much at home any more just because i stare at the computer all day at work, its kind of the last thing i want to do when i get home. But i need to keep record to make sure i keep track of my eatings, doings and can encourage myself to post a positive improvement each time. I can and will do this. Taking it easy and steady, one week at a time.

They are my first tests to prove to myself I can keep a promise to myself, stick to the challenges i set and complete my goals.

I hope to map out my new years resolutions throughout the week.
Hurry up and open again gym!!!

Savii
xx

Been awhile...

i want.....

i usually update at work all the time but they have cracked down on internet usage and pretty much blocked the net ... sucks cos now i have nothing to distract me from snacking

Bit of an update on myself

... i am fat, nothing new.. .

well i gains 2lb and my xmas challenge has not stuck at all, i have lost total control of my eating habits and i feel bigger then ever

But i am setting myself a new goal: i have 25 days to lose 6lb - at least - being my xmas present to me!

I found pics of my last xmas when i was around 138... damn that is still huge but it is better then what i am now... i must get to under 140 by xmas.. I MUST!

*sigh*

was feeling abit off 2day and as a result i missed out on body attack and body pump! instead i went for a nice relaxing 50 min walk then came home and stuffed my face with rockyroad i made on the weekend

*shame*

well its a new month... new year is up next with so much to look forward to.. but right now i need to focus on acheiving this....

~

Perfection

xox

hmmm last entry I posted was a bit on the dark side. I hate how that side comes out of me when I have been drinking... and lately it just keeps getting worse and worse. Thank you to EiLEANstein, I needed abit of a reality check :)



So I have been keeping myself busy setting small goals and planning big adventures. I am still on track to my Xmas weight, which I didn’t quite expect as have been very slack in the restricting department. Instead of restricting I have been halving what I would usually eat all off and so far it is working well. I am still indulging in cakes and chocolate but carefully which has resulted in very few binge days (with the exception of Sunday but we wont talk about that :S)

So 125lb has been my main goal for quite some time, but I know for a fact that I wont get there anytime soon so I am giving myself 8 months to get there when it is time for my EUROTRIP haha so pumped. Wow counting that, 8 months is a long time! But the reality of it is that I can slowly maintain my weight loss and do it at a healthy pace.

Awkward moment just before, one of my work mates asked if I have lost weight? I have but not much.. replied with a “no?” then they all started staying how I always go walking etc…. bailed out of there pretty quick.

I don’t like being talked about, especially
when its about my weight and exercise.

I am getting a tattoo on my ribs soon, a small design i made myself so when i get it done i will post some pics up. Cannot wait for it! Not only will it be super sexy but it is also motivation to never get any larger then when i get this tat!
No tattoo looks nice all stretched or hidden between rolls!

Intake today
Breakfast:
Half a Banana (50g) and half of a Multigrain Muffin – 123cals

Lunch:
Lettuce, Spinach Leaves, Carrot, Capsicum, 2 Multigran Rice Thins – 64 Cals

Snack:
Scone with tiny bit of Jam & Cream – 250 Cals
& a small Apple – 45 Cals

Exercise:
Walking for an hour 6kph – 300 Cals
Body Pump 1hr – 600 Cals
Body Attack 1hr – 750 Cals

Not sure what is for dinner…..

Ciao Ciao
Savvii
xxx

its a harsh realitly...

but i welcome death rite now!
i feel like it wat i deserve... just reading a single comment on facebook, after a fantastic day my world come crashing down ... from single comment.
Why is it so hard to be happy when the one you love is happy with somene else!
Why do i even bother when its pointless to try and pursue someone who just doesnt want u?!?!

why is the quest for happiness and perfection so hard....
Why cant it just be there for you, ready for you, laid out for you?

why does lonliness call over happiness?
why does control overpower desire?

I want it all now, i hate waiting for the impossible.! I am trying to make it happen but reality sits in the way!
move aside! its my time to shine! I want to be my dream!!!
Thin
Beautiful
Irresistable
your world
your everything
Someones everything
just... something to someone.



wat is happiness?

run, hide and dont come out till its aaaallllll gone...

thats what i should be doin right now instead of waiting for 3 cheese pasta bake with chicken and bacon........ shame

very small serving, double gym and walking tomoz to burn off..... if my cold permits

Today will officially be my bad day of the week! Smooth healthy sailing for the rest!... i hope!

so beautiful

savii

xx

Countdown to Xmas..

Well the weekend was pretty sweet..... get drunk, ate lots, caught up with family and friends, got amazing pressies and all in all had an amazing time!.......Now it begins!

X-mas Challenge:

80 days

11.5 weeks

5kg

I have a goal and i am going to stick with it! I whipped out my old journals where i kept track of my measurements, weight and food intake for each day and opened a new page!

Im so excited. I have lost track and motivation since coming back from new zealand but now its summer (bikini season) and its time to take control again.

Bring on the sun :D

Ciao Ciao

Savii

xx